Go out, see life
Psychoanalysis and Desire
Regarding her analysis, María Camila says, “it became something non-negotiable in her life”. She begins her interview by stating emphatically that “psychoanalysis saved her life”. Two strong statements that, as Camila’s words are heard, take on complete solidity.
Her desire has led her to put an ocean between herself and what she calls “a life living the desires of others at the expense of her own” and “her own, for which she works and strives, and which she long considered impossible”.
In the past, giving in to her desire had begun to take its toll, the payment for which, Camila says, “she felt in her body. A life that, although apparently perfect, complete and full to others, was lacking something”.
She goes on to say that “she began to somatise everything she had been unable to put into words and into action towards what she wanted. From a discomfort that appeared every day at the same time, to a situation that had her on the verge of death before her planned trip”.
She did not give up on the trip and, once she had recovered, she took her already packed luggage and set off on her adventure to Madrid. Camila says that ‘only through analysis did she understand that the effects of having given in to her desire were now being felt in her body’ and had converted into pain.
This led her to ‘move from giving explanations to others, in response to the questions she received when she did not agree to what they wanted from her, to distancing herself from everything that disturbed her peace of mind’.
‘From anxiety, the immobilisation of her body due to stress,’ she moved on to the invitation made by psychoanalysis and her psychoanalyst, Yoany Rendon, to commit to life. Her life. In this vein, we could interpret that condensed phrase ‘it saved my life’ as: ‘Go out, see life. Live your life.’
