A mother and a woman with desire
Speaking of her experience in psychoanalysis, Lina tells us, “After an initial cycle of sessions and having put her process on hold for a while, she found her-way-back into analysis following the birth of her son.”
She continues her interview by saying that, “after suffering from postnatal depression, she returned to see her analyst, Yoany Rendón. She wanted to continue, as she had found in psychoanalysis a-possible-path”.
From then on, says Lina, “certain changes began to take place that brought relief to her life”. For example, “she stopped having to justify her decisions to an ethics committee”, to whom “she had to go and apologise, even without any reason, for having dared to act outside of what they wanted”.
“Having to keep her words to herself” – her desire – “even came to affect her physically, causing terrible pain in her throat”. A situation that would change with her partner, “with whom she feels heard and in whom she finds space for her speech”.
As Lina says, “breaking that triangle, as well as differentiating between the desiring woman and her role as a mother, have become a path to be travelled in her analytical experience”.
She has come to understand “how costly it is to want to sustain the desire of the Others”. As she spoke these words, Lina mentioned her father,“whose reasons for leaving home she now understands, without him having ceased to be there for her, to listen to her”.
Of her encounters in the park with her father, “she recalls always having had the opportunity to speak, a space for her words”. Furthermore, “she recalls hearing from him words that urged her to follow her desire, which directly implied ceasing to take charge of the desire of the Others”.
Thus, Lina concludes her interview by mentioning her family. “That desire is knotted by her bet on her family, her husband and her son, where, by the hand of psychoanalysis, she is also finding her own path between being a mother and the a-woman-with-desire”.
